i was pretty fired up about writing this entry until i was involved in a conversation about grilled skate wings, chilled seafood platters and things to do in scarborough.
(which, i also just realised, is a pretty apt metaphor for this entry)
sometimes it's very easy to lose sight of what you really want in the midst of the chaos that tangles itself around our feet in the haste and excitement of everyday life. i almost lost sight of it until i saw a link on the cancerdundee site advertising an essay competition on a topic relating to clinical oncology or on my personal experiences in a clinical oncology unit...
i then went through my elective photo folder and located the pic at the beginning of this entry - i was looking for a picture that signified hope and passion - happy accident! i love the lens flare on the right side of the horizon, just the thing i was looking for :)
it's funny how sifting through thumbnails of pictures can stir up emotions so great, even after more than half a year! i miss baltimore and washington sorely (am actually quite impressed that i managed to visit the aquarium and random places and take the train and travel around washington all by myself HAHAH) - and hopkins even more (i will never forget the pure joy at discovering sushi in the canteen!!!!! and the kinda crappy wraps from the kiosk in the CRC!! and the clinics and tumour board meetings and the people! the marvelous marvelous wonderful beautiful amazing inspirational PEOPLE!)
anyway - i was also looking through person specifications for oncology specialty training posts and was suddenly all fired up to want to study for my MRCP and do a BMSc in clinical research and then a MRes in Cancer Biology... i also want to do my USMLE and then eventually work in the US and with hopkins!!!!!!!!!
sigh - one step at a time i guess.
i think it is also interesting that i am actually finding ITU rather interesting as well! hmm, let's see how this goes - i want to get the most out of the most remaining 3 weeks and see what i think about this specialty at the end of this block. i'm thinking of coming up with another audit topic rather than do it on something boring like handwashing wtf -_-
goals of the week!
(edited)
PLEASE finish up case report on histiocytic sarcoma- have a serious think about what i want to write about for the essay prize
- email dr hkl to inform about
case reportand essay prize PLEASE email patient consent form to NHS REC. urgh. can we just get this over and done with wtf -_-
woohoo! one more big (technically noncompulsory) thing to do! and only a day late! HAHA. -_-
